The morning will come
This is my view as I plan my escape. I plan this escape at least twice a week. In those moments of desperation, dissatisfaction and frustration; convinced that I have nothing left to give and all is lost. One thing I know for sure is that I don't know anything at all. However, through studying God's word I do know that there is an enemy that wants in. He wants into my head, my heart and my decisions. If he can get me to act on these passing emotions brought on by yet another one of those mini crisis, he has won. Sometimes it feels like my faith takes a holiday and my patience following after. I say things and react in ways that are anything but edifying. "Respond, don't react", sound counsel given to me by a wise woman and friend. I am realizing that I am not the smartest cookie in the cookie jar, oh, how I need to allow God to mature me. Lo and behold, this is exactly what He is trying to do, if I allow Him to complete His work in me. Come on Laura! Get it together! So to the serpent whispering sweet lies into my ear, foolishly thinking I am uncovered and unprotected, I say "I may have momentarily collapsed, but I will stand again, there is a new day coming and His mercies are new every morning, I may feel alone and uncovered because of my husband's needs, but in His place stands Jesus, who will never leave me or forsake me. So as the sun goes down, my hope rises reassured that there will be new strength, new vision, new purpose, in the morning!
The faithful love of the Lord never ends! His mercies never cease. Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning. Lamentations 3:22-23
Do you feel like you have lost all hope? Do you feel your faith fading, leaving you with just enough strength to consider running away? I know these feelings all too well, hang on, the morning will come!