When discouragement and hopelessness roll in
"The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my savior;
my God is my rock, in whom I find protection.
He is my shield, the power that saves me,
and my place of safety."
(This was from an evaluation done in 2015)
WHEN DARKNESS ROLLS IN
This morning I was interrupted by discouragement and hopelessness. Just when I thought I was having the most amazing sun-shiny day, grey dark clouds slowly roll in, sometimes these clouds come in form of a piece of mail, a phone call, a doctor's appointment, a conversation with someone, a glance at facebook, or a simple thought that drops into my head.
Today, it was a report from my son's teacher. These reports come to me every quarter or so. This report talks about the goals set for him and how he is doing in that area. There are six goals set for the year and are evaluated every few months. The results of those evaluations are than sent to me. Out of six sentences, five of them said my son "was unable". Five times, I read my son was unable. That is enough to just ruin my day, maybe my week, month, year. Can I argue these goals, yes! Does it do any good? Trust me after 15 years of this, no, it doesn't do any good. These reports are set in stone and filed away. Very discouraging to me as his mom. These professionals are trained to only record the negative, the lacking, the what needs improvement. Many recognize what he can do, what he has accomplished, but rarely is this put into print. So I have some choices to make here.
PUSHING BACK THE DARK CLOUDS
I have decided to run to my God, my Rock for protection. I am grabbing my shield, which is my God, and I'm fighting back right now!
1. My son IS ABLE to light up a room with his smile and laughter
2. My son IS ABLE to unconditionally love and forgive any one and every one.
3. My son IS ABLE to go through so many medical procedures and surgeries and still come out smiling and laughing.
4. My son IS ABLE to look past your defects and judgment and greet you with a big warm HI.
5. My son IS ABLE to have a deeper and more meaningful relationship with God because of his purity of mind and spirit.
So to all of those who would dare declare what my son is unable to do, I say to you:
It may be on paper, in his chart or file, but I will not allow it into his heart, my heart or my family's heart. You too, can make a stand and not accept or allow discouragement or hopelessness into your heart.
What are somethings you have to STOP listening to?